Wednesday, October 28, 2009

The great Pumpkins....

Here are a few pictures of us carving pumpkins for Halloween.

Ty & Scott removing the tops.



Ty & I. He wanted to make silly faces. He held me so tight it hurt. I could just eat him up. :o)


Scott took his job VeRy sIerOusLy



Like Father like Son. This didn't look so dangerous when I was taking the picture... hine sight is 20/20.



The finished Product.


Saturday, October 24, 2009

The investigator....

Picture it, you're home on your day off, hair & makeup undone (not that I ever go overboard in that department), laundry is in the process of being sorted, washed, folded & put away, and you hear a knock at the door. At first I thought I was hearing things, it was at the breeze way door via the garage, and anyone that know us that comes in that door usually knocks & comes right in. So I ignored it thinking a family member would be strolling through at any moment. Anyone else would use the front door, which was open right? Wrong. Ty yells "Mommy someone is here" So I rush to the door to discover a gentleman in a suit. He was alone so I knew he wasn't a new Missionary. :o)
He says hello, introduces himself & then says you must be "A..." I say "Adja" then he said and this must be Ty. Its pretty rare to have a perfect stranger come to the door and already know the names of your family members. It then dawned on me that he was the investigator from the

Sheriff's Department.

He wondered if I had a moment, so I invite him into through my breeze way AKA laundry area and into the kitchen. Apologizing all the way. I explained that I was having surgery the next day & was trying to prepare the house & get everything accomplished that I would be unable to do for the next few weeks. He was gracious & said that it was no problem at all & that the house really was finethat "he'd seen much worse" I must admit that it really wasn't that bad, but its always the case to have a stranger stop by completely unannounced & you be completely unprepared. I think they plan it that way. He drove nearly an hour to get here not even knowing if I was home. But I suppose investigators don't call ahead. :0)

He asked me if I was supportive of Scott & his decision to become a sheriff & if I understood that there would be many days, night, holidays etc. that our family would be without him. He even asked if I was prepared or given any thought that he might not come home at all someday. Talk about a speechless moment. I think I passed the test though, as I gave him the best & only answer that I could think of ... that no one is really prepared to loose a spouse at an early age or unexpectedly, but yes, that I understand that "could" happen. I also explained that if Scott gets the position that I won't deny that it will be a HUGE adjustment for our family. Right now he home everyday around the same time, home each night for dinner, bedtime etc. But that we are supporting Scott because this is something he really wants. He isn't doing it for the pay- he makes about the same now- or the insurance- I carry it at work, but he has a real desire to do this. If that is what Scott wants then I am supportive of that, and even though it will require alot from our family we are willing to do that for him. Its called Sacrifice. He nodded & seemed to think that I had the right attitude. He's pleased with Scott and said that he was going to continue the background investigation & hopefully Scott would be placed near the top of the list. I told him that it was nice to see Scott Aka Mr. Calm & Collect actually be excited about something. Scott is about as mellow as they come & I'm the emotional one (no laughing please) :O)
Anyhow I'm excited that things seem to be rolling along for him. Keep your fingers crossed & I'll keep you posted.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Pre Op

A big dose of reality hit yesterday, you'd think that it would have come along time before this but apparently that isn't the way that my brain works. Scott & Ty went along and waited most ot the day. I had to go to an appointment at the doctors office then head over to the hospital for pre-admissions testing. The nurse was so kind. She walked me through what to expect & that's were I got a bit chocked up (of course) I've had months & even years to get a grip & yet I deny reality until that that moment. She said how they would do a few things then get me on the stretcher, cover my hair with the cap & they'd give me a chance to say goodbye to Scott, that's when I lost it. I'm such a visual person, so I instantly pictured it all & it was like watching a Lifetime movie :o)
The day will start super early. We have to be at the hospital at 5:45 that morning (we'll have to leave our house about 5:00 to be there on time), then they'll send me up to my room & begin my IV/ antibiotics etc. The surgery will start about 7:45 & take about 2 hours, then I'll be in the recovery room for a while, & then I'll be back in my room. They said that I'll have to spend the night & start eating the next morning, I have to keep something down & be able to manage my pain before they'll send me home.

Anyhow, I have tons of things to do before Thursday, so I better get at it.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Surgery....

Well, I haven't told very many people, but I'm going to be having surgery on October 15 & its coming up fast. Soon after having Ty my OBGYN told me that I would need to have a complete hysterectomy & to give her a call when I was ready. I went in mid August, for my routine exam that I've been putting off for some time. I think it was because in my heart of hearts I knew what would happen, hence me putting off my apt. It was such a hard decision that I couldn't bring myself to make. So in I stroll to my apt. I happened to see my old Dr. there (another one in the practice) He didn't mess around. I told him what had been going on, & he put everyone into action. He had is Tech stay through her lunch to scan me only to find me full of things that shouldn't be going on. A cyst, fluid, an inflammed tube, endometriosis...etc. etc....... the usual story. My right ovary has decided it wasn't needed any longer & has started to shrink. The doctor described it as dying inside & abnormally small. Perhaps that is why I've consistantantly gained weight & had other issues going on. After he tells me all this , he walks me into his nurse that schedules surgeries & says that pretty much enough is enough & that its time to do the hysterectomy. They wanted to do it the next week, but I put it off as late as I could so so that I can give myself time to grieve. It really sucks when you've been given this body to be a steward over & you can't decide how it works, or what parts to keep... if that makes any sense. I was so down about it, so just plain angry & mad, sad... the works. I suppose it just doesn't seem fair, to be so young & have everything together yet have no control. We went through so many failed IVF attempts before we were blessed w/ Ty, & what seems cruel is that we were thinking we'd try it again... Just so I could tell myself that I did everything I could. It seems like a cruel joke or something. I suppose it is a blessing though considering my ovary wouldn't have produced follicles & our changes would be that much less. My mother in law told me that I should be grateful, that I have Ty & he's more than most people have, I know this, but I feel like someone is dangling a candy bar in front of me saying... you had a bite of this... it was good huh? well... now you can just look at other people enjoying it. I hope that doesn't sound awful. I'm so afraid of waking up after the surgery & feeling such a loss, & trying to show everyone else around me that I'm "OK" & not sad. I just don't think it will happen like that. But anyhow, I'm gearing up now for next Thursday... I've made a list of things that I'd like to try & get done, since I'll be out of work for about 6 weeks & not able to do very many things & really am grateful for all of my blessings. I know that I have many friends & family that will help me through what will be a difficult time. Anyhow I'll keep you all posted.

Pictures....


Ty at the Creek... it was freezing & he wanted to be in the water. Brrrrrrrrrrrr...



Ty in the Garden.




Being silly...

Scott's Interview

Yay!!!!
Scott had his interview on Friday, he was so excited... which is always neat, since he doesn't get excited about very many things. The investigator told him that it looked pretty good for him & that now the background check begins. He'd start the academy in January, so its certainly one step closer. I really hope that it works out for him, I know that it something that he wants so badly. I'll be a nervous wreck, but I'm sure I'll get used to it. Anyhow, keep your fingers crossed for him I'll be sure to keep you all posted. :o)